While yesterday I experienced an overwhelming Zen feeling
and felt more energized than I have in weeks, maybe even months, today I woke
at 6 a.m. tired and hangry (when hunger causes anger).
Actually, that may be an overstatement. I
had a few moments of feeling that way—especially while I made my husband’s lunch
and prepared his dinner for the crockpot. But I was able to identify it, even
stating out loud, “I feel hangry now.” That made it dissipate. Warm water
helped too. And our two happy dogs who never seem to get hangry even when
it’s past their mealtime.
Today as I write this there are only a precious few hours
left in the great three-day fast experiment. Five to be exact. Four hours and
44 minutes if I’m really being precise. Yes, I am counting down to that
degree. Yet I am also trying to accomplish other things so I can distract
myself from the fact that I’m occasionally hungry.
To-Do List as Distraction
Balancing the checkbook today and going over our summer
expenses I experienced two belly rumbles. They’re my first since midday Sunday.
My initial thought was to head into the kitchen and see what was available to
eat. But then I remembered, “Oh yeah, I’m fasting. My only choice is water.” The
water worked, dispelling my hunger almost immediately.
When it came time to vote in today’s primary elections for
state offices, I wasn’t sure I had the energy to walk. My knee gave out just
after I had tossed a peanut-butter bone to my dog, which convinced me to drive
the couple blocks. It felt good to vote. And it feels great to cross off so
many items from the to-do list. Even with the weariness I am still able to do
more today than I could all of last week.
Just Nod if You Can Hear Me
I just got off the phone with the nurse at my primary care
physician’s office. It was a challenge parsing out the symptoms from last week
vs. today, but we managed. I’m thinking I’m not supposed to still feel this bad
after being on antibiotics and extra supplements since February. Because I’m no
longer sure all my symptoms are caused by Lyme, I want to see a rheumatologist to
discuss my progress and my challenges. I’d like answers, but even just someone
to listen is a good start.
Present and Future Posts
I know today’s post is a rambling update of my day. I can’t
help that. It’s my brain on hunger, and hopefully on reboot. I envision a
future post to include a recap of what I drank during the fast and a few notes
on things like bathroom breaks (I was up twice as much last night compared to
the night before, for instance). After having heard from several people via
Facebook and text messages that they’d like to know more about my experience on
the fast, I’d like to make even the more personal information available to anyone
who might be interested.
I will also write about my post-fast strategy. Tonight at
7:45 I won’t get to savor a veggie burger on a gluten-free bun. Instead I
have an organic homemade juice planned. I don’t have a juicer, so my blender
and a sieve are going to have to do. I’ll mix the result at least 50/50
with water, possibly watering it down even more than that. One glass is all I
plan to have before bed. And tomorrow, after my customary morning two glasses of water,
I’ll have another. Of course we all know what is said about plans made, right?
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